im just a tiny swan with a tiny heart.
its officially after prelim now.
yes, IT IS OVER.
but i dont feel like it has ended.
and i dont want it to end either.
be it it or it.
as i walk along the corridor under my hse just now, i got the feeling dat i used to have last yr on fris.
you yi zhong gan jue bi shang xin, nan guo hai yao lai de ke pa.
zhi shao nan guo jiu dai biao ken ding.
i got over it more thn four years ago.
the feeling of being lost.
the feeling of desperation.
nobody is perfect.
but i believe that there are some things tha can be closer to perfection than others.
i realised that im a selfish n demanding person at times.
yes, i m.
but im also someone who cares v much more about how i feel than anything else.
i forgot what i wanted to type.
once again.
but once i've decided on sth, i'll insist on it.
its this stubbornness that i insist on.
sometimes, its amazing how i got this far.
it seems like my guardian angel, though i dont know who, is always around me, blessing me, providing the best for me.
best in the sense best but not best.
i once prayed, "do what is best for me."
i do not ask for the what normal pple think is the best, but i ask for the best in my own definition, the best that will make me learn n grow n mature.
perhaps im still stuck in the tv or fairy tale kinda story.
i really do not ask for much, but life seems like nth but a complicated piece of mechanisms which can happen in infinite permutations.
perhaps the reason y i love watching tv is that i love living in that kinda story.
i have always tried imagining myself to be one of the characters.
esp when she's the one who is being doted by so many pple.
411.perhaps this is an auspicious no. i dunno.cxv.j,b jCB dvsb xjcnz.xbczx,z.cnscs.,xb kxncj bx.b xnc.,nz xn ssjancsdbcsCB.
THIS IS JUST A PIECE OF. I DUNNO.
things just dont always turn out as expected or as we wanted them to be.
esp emotions.
if given a choice, how many wld actually not choose to be happy.
that's y utilitarianism sound so appealing just a the vvv 1st time.
i dont like this feeling, i really dont.
but i dont know how to get rid of it.
well, it's gonna be over. soon.
perhaps i just didnt show enough concern for others.
or perhaps i just didnt think enough for others.
but anyway, it's 1st time that a friend sms me to say that he's in hospital,.
but that's NOT the point.
well, bio today had too many nots.
fine.
sometimes a stranger might just be a best friend after all.
at least a stranger will be more concerned with ur presence.
well, but pls dont feel sad whoever it is whther i noe u or not who is reading my blog.
just that i wrote in alot of down tone doesnt mean im all the time feeling sad.
sampling.
haha.
well.
happy valentine's day.
every day is valentine's day.
n.
KOSII 582 WR GQDW.
PERHAPS MY EXPECTATIONS ARE JUST TOO HIGH.
im too afraid. to go on.
yes, IT IS OVER.
but i dont feel like it has ended.
and i dont want it to end either.
be it it or it.
as i walk along the corridor under my hse just now, i got the feeling dat i used to have last yr on fris.
you yi zhong gan jue bi shang xin, nan guo hai yao lai de ke pa.
zhi shao nan guo jiu dai biao ken ding.
i got over it more thn four years ago.
the feeling of being lost.
the feeling of desperation.
nobody is perfect.
but i believe that there are some things tha can be closer to perfection than others.
i realised that im a selfish n demanding person at times.
yes, i m.
but im also someone who cares v much more about how i feel than anything else.
i forgot what i wanted to type.
once again.
but once i've decided on sth, i'll insist on it.
its this stubbornness that i insist on.
sometimes, its amazing how i got this far.
it seems like my guardian angel, though i dont know who, is always around me, blessing me, providing the best for me.
best in the sense best but not best.
i once prayed, "do what is best for me."
i do not ask for the what normal pple think is the best, but i ask for the best in my own definition, the best that will make me learn n grow n mature.
perhaps im still stuck in the tv or fairy tale kinda story.
i really do not ask for much, but life seems like nth but a complicated piece of mechanisms which can happen in infinite permutations.
perhaps the reason y i love watching tv is that i love living in that kinda story.
i have always tried imagining myself to be one of the characters.
esp when she's the one who is being doted by so many pple.
411.perhaps this is an auspicious no. i dunno.cxv.j,b jCB dvsb xjcnz.xbczx,z.cnscs.,xb kxncj bx.b xnc.,nz xn ssjancsdbcsCB.
THIS IS JUST A PIECE OF. I DUNNO.
things just dont always turn out as expected or as we wanted them to be.
esp emotions.
if given a choice, how many wld actually not choose to be happy.
that's y utilitarianism sound so appealing just a the vvv 1st time.
i dont like this feeling, i really dont.
but i dont know how to get rid of it.
well, it's gonna be over. soon.
perhaps i just didnt show enough concern for others.
or perhaps i just didnt think enough for others.
but anyway, it's 1st time that a friend sms me to say that he's in hospital,.
but that's NOT the point.
well, bio today had too many nots.
fine.
sometimes a stranger might just be a best friend after all.
at least a stranger will be more concerned with ur presence.
well, but pls dont feel sad whoever it is whther i noe u or not who is reading my blog.
just that i wrote in alot of down tone doesnt mean im all the time feeling sad.
sampling.
haha.
well.
happy valentine's day.
every day is valentine's day.
n.
KOSII 582 WR GQDW.
PERHAPS MY EXPECTATIONS ARE JUST TOO HIGH.
im too afraid. to go on.
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