A Reason...
I jus read a magazine yesterday.
vanilla. it's a february issue, so a number of love stories in there.
it hit me when i saw 1 of the ladies saying what i told myself some time ago- All things happen for a reason.
it really makes me reflect on how abnormal i've been for the past 1 week, unable to tink normally n cheer myself up n be enlightened by my own thoughts jus like previously. perhaps due to the diffreence in the nature of challenge this time. i used to dislike certain 'compulsory' stuff last time, bt went abt appreciating them aft tt. i was grateful in the end, for everything. yes, everything. it's not ez nowadays for pple to jus appreciate everything tt happen to them. we want more, we want better stuff. yet i would say jus perhaps months ago, i was grateful. n i taught myself to be grateful still. n now, i guess what im going thru now has a reason behind it too. i may not have the wisdom to see thru it entirely yet, or perhaps it's just tt i dont have tt usual peace in my heart tt i used to have. all these days, they have been a struggle for me. yet i'll say tt i'm alright now. at least, i wont do silly things.
for the past few days, i did wonder if it wld b beta if things didnt go WRONGs. tt wrong + wrong = wrong. tt u may nt realize the pain of sadness if u havent been thru gladness b4. bt im now grateful for many tings. many many things. a month ago i may say "hey, go study science". tt wld b selfish. it's god's gift tt im able to do well in a's, thou honestly i didnt put in the effort. it's like 10% or even less than compared to th amt i studied in mayb sec3 n4? ok, stil my classmates then accuse me of bein slack. bt oh well, they have my welfare at heart. bt in jc, my reason to study changed. alot of my views bcum diff. many of them. tt i no longer care even to the slight slight bit abt what others tink abt me. it's no longer impt when sth much much much more impt is alrdi in ur hands. being 1st is alrdi nth more than a mere vague passing remark tt ur exclassmate may mention many years fr now if u do gather tog. bt there r other pple tt u'll b facing, well every day, mayb not now, bt in the future.
Each step is a stride forward. But every step comes only aft great effort.
Relax, God is in charge. What is there to worry for a being so tiny n powerless when the all mighty God is here to take care of everything? i can only say that He has been so kind to me, giving me everything that i asked for. So i shant worry anymore. let go of them, n life would be much ezier.
Patience. Kindness. Forgiving. FAITH.
It's a wonderful, n i hope, the only opportunity to build up the faith n trust.
perhaps what i said on sun abt thurs nite was jus bcoz i havent been feelin much excitement for some time alrdi. nt the kindof rollercoaster ride feelin wich i tink may make me faint, bt the kind which i experienced b4. perhaps too much of it in a too short period of time. i've been in my comfort zone for so long. perhaps im also afraid of tt, afraid tt e excitement might be here, bt e comfort, e non-self-consciousness may be gone. Blood is thicker than water. that explains the difference between me n her. well, if 1 day i were to choose, my choice is v apparent. bt... rdg dmu oyf? this is my only fear. I need to overcome it with faith n trust, bt i need some source to find these.
my actions n thoughts may seem childish to many pple. bt im here to say, even 10, 20, 100 years later, i would still tink the same way, do the same thing. for my priority will remain unchanged.
my dream is simple. maybe tt's y, it's too simple for it to come true.
we'r on a boat..
sailing..
when the wind blows,
when the thunderstorm comes..
will the boat capsize..
or will it remain stable n keep sailin..
one day we'll know...
we should not suffer in silence alone, for only lonely ghosts do.
i'll be here, im always here.
things will change, e boat will never sail into the same river twice.
bt i believe tt it'll be a beta rriver.
if not, it is the best river.
giselle is nice ballet.
i love the style of the moves.
n there it is, the power tt saved the prince fr the wilis.
i love fairytales.
bt i stil do appreciate these romantic stories.
i'll be here for buts.
Hold on, n at the end of it all, u'll be glad u did.
It's tough, bt not impossible.
With e strength that comes from u.
I believe... ...
Thank you for beimg strong.
vanilla. it's a february issue, so a number of love stories in there.
it hit me when i saw 1 of the ladies saying what i told myself some time ago- All things happen for a reason.
it really makes me reflect on how abnormal i've been for the past 1 week, unable to tink normally n cheer myself up n be enlightened by my own thoughts jus like previously. perhaps due to the diffreence in the nature of challenge this time. i used to dislike certain 'compulsory' stuff last time, bt went abt appreciating them aft tt. i was grateful in the end, for everything. yes, everything. it's not ez nowadays for pple to jus appreciate everything tt happen to them. we want more, we want better stuff. yet i would say jus perhaps months ago, i was grateful. n i taught myself to be grateful still. n now, i guess what im going thru now has a reason behind it too. i may not have the wisdom to see thru it entirely yet, or perhaps it's just tt i dont have tt usual peace in my heart tt i used to have. all these days, they have been a struggle for me. yet i'll say tt i'm alright now. at least, i wont do silly things.
for the past few days, i did wonder if it wld b beta if things didnt go WRONGs. tt wrong + wrong = wrong. tt u may nt realize the pain of sadness if u havent been thru gladness b4. bt im now grateful for many tings. many many things. a month ago i may say "hey, go study science". tt wld b selfish. it's god's gift tt im able to do well in a's, thou honestly i didnt put in the effort. it's like 10% or even less than compared to th amt i studied in mayb sec3 n4? ok, stil my classmates then accuse me of bein slack. bt oh well, they have my welfare at heart. bt in jc, my reason to study changed. alot of my views bcum diff. many of them. tt i no longer care even to the slight slight bit abt what others tink abt me. it's no longer impt when sth much much much more impt is alrdi in ur hands. being 1st is alrdi nth more than a mere vague passing remark tt ur exclassmate may mention many years fr now if u do gather tog. bt there r other pple tt u'll b facing, well every day, mayb not now, bt in the future.
Each step is a stride forward. But every step comes only aft great effort.
Relax, God is in charge. What is there to worry for a being so tiny n powerless when the all mighty God is here to take care of everything? i can only say that He has been so kind to me, giving me everything that i asked for. So i shant worry anymore. let go of them, n life would be much ezier.
Patience. Kindness. Forgiving. FAITH.
It's a wonderful, n i hope, the only opportunity to build up the faith n trust.
perhaps what i said on sun abt thurs nite was jus bcoz i havent been feelin much excitement for some time alrdi. nt the kindof rollercoaster ride feelin wich i tink may make me faint, bt the kind which i experienced b4. perhaps too much of it in a too short period of time. i've been in my comfort zone for so long. perhaps im also afraid of tt, afraid tt e excitement might be here, bt e comfort, e non-self-consciousness may be gone. Blood is thicker than water. that explains the difference between me n her. well, if 1 day i were to choose, my choice is v apparent. bt... rdg dmu oyf? this is my only fear. I need to overcome it with faith n trust, bt i need some source to find these.
my actions n thoughts may seem childish to many pple. bt im here to say, even 10, 20, 100 years later, i would still tink the same way, do the same thing. for my priority will remain unchanged.
my dream is simple. maybe tt's y, it's too simple for it to come true.
we'r on a boat..
sailing..
when the wind blows,
when the thunderstorm comes..
will the boat capsize..
or will it remain stable n keep sailin..
one day we'll know...
we should not suffer in silence alone, for only lonely ghosts do.
i'll be here, im always here.
things will change, e boat will never sail into the same river twice.
bt i believe tt it'll be a beta rriver.
if not, it is the best river.
giselle is nice ballet.
i love the style of the moves.
n there it is, the power tt saved the prince fr the wilis.
i love fairytales.
bt i stil do appreciate these romantic stories.
i'll be here for buts.
Hold on, n at the end of it all, u'll be glad u did.
It's tough, bt not impossible.
With e strength that comes from u.
I believe... ...
Thank you for beimg strong.
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