7 syf??!!

just read her lay wang's blog. omg. 7 syf???!! haha. i onli had 2. the first one was... slack. the 2nd one was tedious. haha. her gt 7!! and like 3 gold with honours. haha. wa. but must say dat she is a super musically inclined person, hu loves music alot. chinese, pop, western, wadeva la.hehe. im bcuming musically dead liao. duno y my heart is so calm listening to music liao. don't have last time during dance dat kinda gan jue ang emotions. dats the prob of being a sci student ba. nvm. i shall find my ganjue bk next time. sci juz kills away all my feelings for alot of tings la. sumtimes its abit sad to tink of human as some random indivs which arised fr some random events of fertilisatioon. and our character and intelligence and perhaps talents r juz partly bcoz of our genes. hope dat the partly is of less sig ba. weird weird world.

feeel weird today. head abit heavy. bt nvm. im fine. and happy!

rmb when i watched chun jiang during syf opening rehearsal...
gan dong.
it may just be two v usual words for normal pple.
but it isnt often dat we can feel this way.
esp when the cause is a dance.
by a school.
by a non-professional school.

last time i sometimes felt dat laoshi was a bit too strict and perhaps a little harsh. but i know (or do i? but at least i felt at least partly) how much effort she has put in. her heart and soul. to think about it. pple may juz view it as yet another ordinary job, a mean to earn a living. but surely she doesn't view it this way. think of the number of hours she is in school, the number of hours she is in dance studio. or rather, think of the number of hours she doesn't have dance in her mind at all. from music to choreography to costumes. and of course, how well we dance, our actions, techniques, ganjue, biaoyan, rhythm... she has so much to care about. yet she doesn't compromise on any.

i don't know how im suppose to do aniting like wad she has done for dance. her love for dance. something we have to learn.

shu shan you lu qing wei jing, yi hai wu bian ku zuo zhou.
these word have long been pasted on the dance studio wall. laoshi had reminded us dat dance is v ku. its not ez to b a gd dancer, one who goes beyond the apperance, nito the soul. one hu kan touch the hearts of many. but its not just the outcome that counts. its the process. an unforgettable one.

perhaps what we gain during the process already outweigh the result such that the result is insignificant.

nonetheless, its not ez to understand this. it takes time. but im starting to understand. i guess.

got to go! be realistic. be practical. be focused. these r what im supposed to do for now./try la. byeyo!

this is not meant for anyone to read.

tink i sleep enough nowadays. and sleep well. still jing shen now. q jingshen for a few days le.

this is not meant for anyone to read. so. yup.

don't know y. though q expected. but still feel abit sad.
maybe its the bond, dat sumwer in my z'kardia, dont know la.
should be rational wen dealing wif this, realli, but still, im a v irratuional person. hu let my emotions take over me akot of times.
n summore, i didnt ask abt it. i wasnt even [prepared for it. i was just, u noe, waiting for a lost contact to sms me, n i finalli gt her sms, n in the same sms, yup.
dont know la.

but nvm. im happie now.
though havent totally gt over it la.
nvm.
nice buffet.
nice erp! erp! erp! erp! wich lasted fr orchard to.... all the way basicalli la. hahahaaha.
and a nice "daymtmyl". was this the exact letters? nvm.

thanks for making me happy.

and sf hay mtpqj xtqj gdq ua o. p fkaoxg kdnt mttq wayt dssytbpdupnt q ftqfpupnt.

but still, im happy le la. though still gt a tinge of...
pepper.
yea. dats how u describe it. not exactli sppicy, but still a little...

my bio test tmr is screwed. neva even read through eveyting once. havent even finish reading thru virus once. omg. nvm. shall face it on thus.its ok.

but gtdy, gaqu hsybt wt ua fdi ukpqjf qtvu upwt z. o qat p rdf n vpqutqj q gaqu zar rdg ua ga w gpfxpzt wiftxh hay dfzpqj o eotfupaq lofu qar pq fbkaax ay qau.

i shall sleep now. good nite.
tmr gonna b ultra chem day. :)

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titleless. therefore it has a title. hence, it's not titleless.

forget it. don't wanna crap abt sth stupid.

even the comp keep hanging 2dae.

even haf to refresh blogspot twice.

nvm.

don't know what's wrong with me la.

don't know la.

don't it's my problem or theirs la.
don't wanto tink.

i have learnt long ago that the world is unfair.

yes, it is.

it has proven to be.

juz sick of so many things already.

like what faris say, she's not doing what she likes.
neither m i, actually.

the world is a complicated world.
or rather, human beings are complicated.

too complicated.

maybe farming will be much nicer.
much happier.

ok crapp.

it's impossible.

at least for now.

sb said b4 pple in the v past got alot of free time, no tv, blah, therefore they can lie on tree, look into the sky and tink abt life. n dats how they tink of philosophical stuff.
but now we r doing the opposite, actually.
nvm.

pple listen to music without appreciating them sometimes.
mayb im one of them.

life is not juz lie a play. it is also like a music.
can be fast, can b slow.
depending on how you want it to be.
or perhaps, how the world want it to be.

what makes up the world?
everyone, everything, every moment.
but duno y.
we dont seem to be, or to be abe to, exercise our rite in this committee called world.
juz go in the direction the world goes.

our town.
appreciate life.
but.
r we?
don't know.
seems like live to earn money so that we can eat n blah, thus we can live.


ok. i've juz typed this chunk of nonsense non-stop in the past few mins. total crap. ignore it if u don't want to not ignore it. ok. circular argument.

Happiness
Abcdesu
Usedcba
Peace
Truth
.

nvm.

anw, it feels better afta crapping.

sometimes, its good to b the only child.
really.
at least.....
i would b perhaps doing is now then...

nvm.

i wonder how many pple will c this crap.
mayb none.
but nvm.
it wont b none.
it will be less than none.
hmm.
is sth dat is less than none less than zero?
since none=zero?
nope.
haha.
sumtimes logic doesnt juz wk in one way la.
n less than none is more than zero.
ok.
fine.
crapping again.
miss kindergarten.
n ying2.
miss those times.
where we eat n sleep n watch tv n do one or two pages of simeple kndergarten hw n cut...
kids nowadays r....
i dont know whether blessed or sad.
i didnt have such blessings.
neither do i have them now.
no assessment bk to be completed n shown to my parents.
no ballet or piano lesson.
used to envy those little kids.
but...
maybe not...
dont know la.

ok.
i shall go slack awhile now n go funan.
wherever it is.
juz go search for it.
no mood to do tings oso.

sayo.

gtdy, haytnty...hpyfu sypwt qowmty dqg aqxi...

thanks alot, gtdy. for accompanying me to j8. though the journey was sooo long.

n chau sho lazy. i oso la. both of us dont wanna walk. n she neva bring my dvd. so nvm.

anw, still sho happie wif all the gold with honours that nygh gt... though i may nt b in all of them last time.

hmm. juz heard fr pd dat 3a is mugging hard...

gtdy xthu kpf ks aq udvp aq foq... ukt xtuuty rdf xox. d xtuuty fpwpxdy ua xqx dqg xyx.

puf az. p zdq udzt gtdy4 haua. mu qpgd uydqfhty ua baws faaq. hehe.


hmm... later i haf diff reading my own blog...nvm...

mayb last thurs was a blessing.
duno.
gd to change phone.
gd to go washrm.
yea.

shall slp soon. now i haf a habit liao. of typing unknown lang to almost evryone, yet noone. understand? hm.. chim. haha.

hahahehehoho.

smile!

anw had foto taking 2dae. hmm. informal 1s. n i stil cant rmb how to tie tie. nvm.

chem test was... hmm... aiyar, cant rmb la.

tmr is soon!=)

auf wiedersehen!